The Stars That Usher Evening Rose

Happy Birthday to me, haha. Anyway, I am now a quarter century old. Sounds old when you say it that way.

Thought I would post to correct something I posted about last night. I was wrong about the whole Jamie situation. Come to find out all it was is that she had gotten a new cell phone and phone number so she actually never got my texts. She gave me her new number so everything should be good now. We are having a b-day party for me on Saturday night at Jeralyn's place. Jamie did not know I knew about the party because she started to talk about it then stopped fearing she had just spilled the beans. I assured her that she was ok and that I already knew. It is not going to be that big of a party though mainly due lack of time and waiting to last minute to plan it. Mainly just going to be my sisters, their kids, Niki, Jamie and I at least that I know of who will be there. But that is ok, I don't need anything big. Sunday Niki is probably going to come down and watch the Super Bowl with William and I, don't know if Jamie will join us for that or not. But that should be fun, don't know what we are going to do, maybe get some snacks from the store and what not. Cathy said she is going to take me out to dinner for my birthday tomorrow as well. But, thats about all I got. I will probably post on the b-day party and everything early next week.

Looooooonnngg time no see. Life has been pretty crazy for me lately so for the most part I had totally forgotten about this blog. But, I am still here. A lot has happened since I last posted(some good and some bad), so this has the potential to be somewhat of a lengthy post but for the most part it should be more interesting than most of my other post.

First off I am no longer living at Jeralyn's as I moved to Cathy's house in early December and I have been here since. Though on the weekend of February 15th I will be moving into my own apartment, which for the most part I am really excited about. I left Jeralyn's as I had been there since May and was feeling like I was overstaying my welcome. But, once I get my apartment I will be back closer to her than Cathy's, in large part because its closer to a lot of my friends up there and its closer to my current job. Though hopefully it wont be my job to much longer. Its a one bedroom apartment about 850 square feet for $713 a month, but that includes cable tv and high speed internet. All I have to do is get renters insurance and set up the power as they do the water for me. Though for about the first three weeks or so my apartment will be sparsely populated with furniture basically having a table (with possibly no chairs), a computer desk, computer, tv (possibly a tv stand), PS3, and my blow-up mattress. But after a few weeks I will head down to Orlando to pick up my actual bed, dressers and any other furniture that I have there.

Second is my job search which has been up and down. I have gotten two job offers but declined both due to the fact they were both either strictly commission based or mostly commission based. One was a marketing position and the other was selling insurance. Another job that I have interviewed for is with a company called Trigon Engineering to be an Air Monitoring Technician. Basically I would travel around the Southeast to different industries testing their emissions to make sure they meet state, local as well as EPA standards. Job pays well too, $20 an hour or $800 a week which due to travel there are weeks I could get paid for more than 40 hours. So the potential to make money is definitely there. The interview was about three weeks ago and I have kept contact with them since continually expressing interest but they keep telling me they have yet to make a final decision. So basically it does not seem to be looking very good for me. But, who knows they have not actually told me no yet so I guess it is still possible. I have also been looking for a second part time job in order to bring in some more money since I am going to have the apartment, but so far have failed at finding anything to this point. So basically despite the fact I spend a chunk of time each day looking for work so far nothing has worked out for me, but hopefully that will change.

Third the Jamie situation has dramatically changed since I last posted. Literally a couple days after my last post her boyfriend broke up with her. It crushed her and she has had a really difficult time dealing with it. He was all she really had other than a few friends for a long time and when he broke up with her I am sure it felt like her world was going to end. That night she actually ended up sleeping on the floor next to my bed as once she fell asleep I did not want to wake her as she was finally at peace. Niki ended up falling asleep at the foot of the bed and they both slept there until about 6-6:30 that morning. After that though Jamie began ignoring me. Which I kind of understood it as it had only been a handful of days before that I had just told her how I felt about her and I am sure the timing of that with her break up made her uncomfortable to be around me. So I gave her space and only occasionally made contact with her (as in maybe once every two weeks) partially to try and cheer her up, though I do not know if it ever worked. None of the text where ever sent with the intent of trying to make a move on her. We did throw her a little birthday party at Jeralyn's place but even then (maybe a week after the break up) you could still tell she was really having a hard time. But after about a month and half she seemed to be doing much better as she seemed mostly like her old self and was really no longer ignoring me and things seemed to be getting close to back to normal (other than the fact we were not hanging out as much since I am so far away), this lasted about three weeks or up until about four days ago when she all of a sudden seemed to began to ignore me again. But, this time I have no idea why she is. I had thought based on the way she had been acting around me the previous couple weeks that she had realized that I was not going to make any moves on her or anything of that sort so I am not sure what is going on now. It is a little aggravating because I do not see what I have done to deserve it. I have been trying to just be her friend but she is making it quiet difficult. All I can think to do is if she continues to ignore me much longer is to go talk to her and maybe get to the bottom of this so hopefully we both can move on and get passed this.

Fourth about three weeks ago I found out that my mother has cancer. Its on her liver and in most cases when cancer is on your liver it has come from somewhere else. They did a bunch of test on her but could never find where else it was located and after several more test have determined that she seems to be one of the lucky ones who has the cancer confined to the liver. Only problem is because of some of the medication she has been on over the years her liver is in bad shape and they are not positive to how well it will handle the surgery needed to remove the cancer. So it is possible that even if they do get rid of the cancer that she may end up needing a liver transplant. But, until they actually do the surgery they wont know. The surgery will hopefully take place within the next week. So we are all keeping our fingers crossed that it all turns out ok.

Fifth tomorrow is my birthday. Hard to believe it is here again. Niki has been asking me what I am doing for it and I had not really thought about it but once Niki asked if we do something could it be on Saturday that seemed to be the little boost needed to get something going. I talked to my manager about changing my shift Saturday which I was able to do so it seems we are going to have a small party Saturday night at Jeralyn's for me and if I get out of work early enough we are going to go get something for dinner. Then on Sunday Niki wants to do something again for my b-day (assuming I do not have to work) and mix it with the Super Bowl. So either I might go up there or she may come down her on Sunday night. Do not know if Jamie will be involved in any of it or not, obviously she is welcome and invited but depending on what has caused her to start ignoring me this time around it would not surprise me if I don't see her. I am half curious to see if she even wishes me happy birthday. Anyway, I am hoping this birthday will begin to turn things around for me because as you can see between, job hunting, girls, my mom, and so on things have not been going all that well for me lately. Not to mention BJ's had severally cut my hours back until this past week making paying the bills nearly a nightmare. But, I figure I am overdue for something to start going right for me and Niki seems to agree, though only time will tell.